One could argue that I was a perfect child; I didn’t have any eating issues, I was pretty smart when I was 4 and all I wanted to do was go to be at 6:30.
Yes, go to bed at 6:30pm.
For some reason, my parents weren’t okay with this. I’m not sure if it was that they wanted me to participate in “family hour” or if they wanted to piss me off by not letting me get in a solid 12 hours of sleep.
So they made me stay up. Which involved a lot of asking “can I go to bed yet?” “Mom, can I go to bed now?”
When I was a teenager they finally let me start going to bed at whatever time I wanted. But I still asked if it was okay. They’d say, “you don’t have to ask anymore” and I’d respond, “oh yea”. And then I would promptly watch one 30-minute show and go to sleep at 8:30.
Fast-forward to now. I have a huge sleeping complex. I refuse to let myself go to sleep at any time that I don’t deem “appropriate” for sleep. For example, if I’m tired at 8:15, I have to say up until at least 9:45. Then, at 9:45 I can start getting ready for bed and have an actualized bed time of around 10:00pm.
Guys, I have issues.
This cannot be normal behavior. Someone, anyone please tell me I don’t need years of therapy to recover from this.