When I was 10-years-old I got an award that no one had ever received. It was an award at dance, but it wasn’t about dancing. It was about being able to make other dancers laugh. To make tense situations less tense with my quick wit.
Yes, I was making this happen at the right bold age of 10.
You’re probably wondering where I’m going with this. So I suppose I’ll cut right to the chase. I’ve never done something I wasn’t good at. If I wasn’t good at it, or I didn’t like it, I quit. Pretty simple. I guess you could either call me a quitter or a perfectionist.
But lately I feel like I’m failing at everything. My apartment is always in shambles, I rarely make dinner, I don’t make time for friends and I feel like this blog is going nowhere, fast.
Maybe it’s the stress of my everyday life, but I have a lot of blogxiety lately. Yes, I just made that up. Is it just me or am I failing? Am I still funny? Do people like the shit I write? Do people even care about reading a blog that makes them laugh or do they want to look at pretty pictures and partake in the seemingly perfect life of the blogger?
Am I wasting my energy? Did I pick the wrong title for my blog? Does it pigeon hole me? Do people really expect me to be mean all the time?
These are just a few things I’ve been thinking about lately. I envy all the bloggers who have turned their blogs into jobs, but is that even possible for me? Where would this lead? What would I do?
I suppose it is because the path isn’t as obvious. Because my blog isn’t as obvious.
Rarely do I post things of such a serious nature, so I apologize if you came here for a laugh today. Actually, I don’t. Sorry I’m not sorry.
welcome to my daily internal struggle.
just go with it. remember your blog is YOURS. you get to write about whatever you want.
snot. beer. bitches. bitches being bitches.
whatever.
so. yes. i want to keep reading.
I think I am in the same boat as you. Would I love to make a career out of blogging and people pay me to be fucking hilarious? Yes. Is it happening right now? No. But I will keep reading if you keep writing!
Girl, you obviously know how I feel. But just remember, this blog is YOUR blog, and not anyone elses. Your blog is baller. Duhzies.
Just roll with it, you’re witty, people are reading what you write. Just give it time, but remember that this blog is about you, not everyone else.
We read your blog because it’s unique to YOU. It’s hard not to compare yourself to others, and we all have down moments in life – but you are your own special voice and person and it’s pretty awesome you’re putting it all out there. Keep up the good work and focus on the positive. Chin up!
Well you know what, I just stumbled into your blog and you drew me in with this post (I can already tell you that I will follow you). I think this is also a struggle of January and February (after setting resolutions, the weather etc- at least it happens to me).
And I know what you mean about blogs, I dont have one that is so obvious either (I am a fashion illustrator) so I have had to work with what I’ve got. What I can tell you is that my blog didn’t really ‘take off’ per se until I began in a way writing for a public (not just a virtual mood board for me).
I think that it is harder if your blog is not all about beautiful outfit posts all the time, but that doesn’t mean it won’t catch up.
Keep it up, you’ve got yourself a new follower!
Paola
http://www.ThePvdHJournal.com
ps I see that you have only recently started blogging… it takes a while to find your ‘blogging voice’! So don’t despair!
Everyone has bloxiety (love the new word). I think we feel that because we’re bloggers we have to live up to this perfect persona. What I love about your blog is your honesty and your wit. Don’t give up!! You make all of us laugh, and just continue to stay true to yourself and you’ll figure it out. Do I sound totally queer right now? Oh well. xo!
Honestly, I love that your blog isn’t filled with photos. I’m also happy that you don’t blog about babies and stuff (not that there is anything wrong with that lol). I still stop by everyday and will continue to do so. I can totally relate to your blogxiety. I’ve been going through the exact same thing! I have blog envy towards the people who can stay home and blog as a career. I’m leaving this comment from my desk, in a grey cubicle, in a corporate headquarters in NJ…at a job I despise. I have no idea what my “blogger voice” is. My posts are all over the place. There is no consistency. I’m hott blogging mess. lol Some people make it looks so easy.
You made a new blog friend today! :)) Come have some fun on the Pin Boards and be inspired with me! I will come back and check on you every day! I have been there. My husband left me with a one year old 4 years ago. I had to rebuild from scratch as a single mom alone in Chicago. It’s about baby steps. It all starts when you take YOURSELF seriously. Be that change. Go for 20 minutes and DO ONE THING! on your list! Clean a little space, light a little candle, and make the space and time for what you really want! x
I love your blog- specifically because it is different from all of the others!!
Blogging is hard work, don’t give up. Just think about what you want out of your blog.
i love the quote – sorry i’m not sorry (from wedding crashers). all of us can spin a million cycles when it comes to thinking about – doing more – because the list is endless, i say – look at all you do do…and be so so proud. you have a beautiful blog, and the apt mess will be there tomorrow and once it’s clean, it will be messy again. we are all our own worst critics, tackle one things a day – just like Anne says above – it’s a great start;) xo
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You crack me up all the time! If you enjoy blogging and keep doing it I think there would be a lot of peple that would be happy 🙂
Agree with Julia wholeheartedly. I absolutely LOVE your blog. Always puts a smile on my face, and I love that it’s not all pretty pictures. It’s real, which is the best part of all.I would say blogxiety is totally normal (unfortunately). You’re doing such a great job. I feel like I’m literally running around like a chicken with its head cut off lately. Reassessing what I need to spend less time on to stay sane. Wish you lived in WI to grab a drink with stat 🙂
Stop hating yourself. Your blog is awesome and I’m sorry I don’t visit more often. But, don’t worry. All of us bloggers go through this at some time. We love you for being who you, mean, nice, funny…
I am new to your blog and hence my rather late comment–can’t beleive I just wroote hence, great first impression.
I have these thoughts at least five times a week if not more–but just keep going–you make me laugh and i like to read blogs that make me laugh and make me feel like there is a real person writing it.
eh dont focus on where your blog is going…it will end up where it’s supposed to be…at the top. just keep that sarcasm coming!
ps add your email in your blogger profile so i can respond to your comments!